ഒരു കപ്പല് കാണാൻ പോയ കഥ

അന്നൊരു ഞായറാഴ്ച ആയിരുന്നു, കുറച്ചു കാലം ആയി ഉള്ള ആഗ്രഹം ആണ് , കൊല്ലത്തൊരു കപ്പൽ വന്നിട്ടുണ്ടെന്നും അത് കാണാൻ പോവണം എന്ന് ഉള്ളത്. അങ്ങനെ പ്രേത്യേകിച്ചു  പ്ലാനുകൾ ഒന്നും ഇല്ലാത്ത ഈ ഞായറാഴ്ച ഞാൻ ഈ ദൗത്യത്തിന് വേണ്ടി തിരഞ്ഞെടുത്തു. 

ഉച്ചയ്ക് 3 മണി, മടി മാറ്റിവച്ചു ഞാൻ കൊല്ലത്തേക്ക് ബസ് കയറി , കൂടെ നമ്മുടെ സ്വന്തം ക്യാമറയും. ബസ് കയറി കൊല്ലത്തേക്ക്  ടിക്കറ്റ് എടുത്തപ്പോളാണ് എവിടെ ഇറങ്ങും എന്ന ചോദ്യം എന്റെ മനസിലേക്ക് കടന്നു വന്നത്, കേരളത്തിന്റെ പടിഞ്ഞാറു മൊത്തം അറബി കടൽ അല്ലെ, അങ്ങനെ ഞാൻ ആദ്യം എന്റെ സംശയത്തിന്റെ ഭാണ്ഡം  അടുത്തുള്ള ചേട്ടന്റെ മുന്നിൽ അഴിച്ചിട്ടു. ഒരു രക്ഷയും ഇല്ല , ഇനി ഗൂഗിൾ തന്നെ ശരണം, ഏകദേശം കൊല്ലം എത്താറായപ്പോ ഒരു പ്രതീക്ഷയും ഇല്ലാതെ ഞാൻ ഇറങ്ങി. അടുത്തുള്ള ഓട്ടോ സ്റ്റാൻഡിൽ പോയി പറഞ്ഞു എനിക്ക് കപ്പലും കാണണം. 60 രൂപ ആവും, 60 അല്ല 600 ചോദിച്ചാലും കൊടുക്കാൻ ഞാൻ തയ്യാറായിരുന്നു (ആഗ്രഹം ഇമ്മിണി ഉണ്ടേ ) ഓട്ടോയിൽ ഇരുന്നപ്പോ തന്നെ ഓട്ടോക്കാരനോട് സംസാരിക്കാൻ തുടങ്ങി, ശരിക്കും ആൾപ്പാർപ്പില്ലാത്ത വഴിയിലൂടെയും തിരക്ക് പിടിച്ച ഇടുങ്ങിയ വഴികളും എന്റെ നാടിനെ ഓർമിപ്പിച്ചു. എത്താറായപ്പോ ഓട്ടോക്കാരൻ ചേട്ടൻ പറഞ്ഞു ഇവിടുന്നു ഇനി വേറെ ഓട്ടോ കിട്ടില്ല, വേണേൽ കാത്തിരിക്കാം എന്ന് അത് ശരിക്കും ഒരു സഹായം ആയിരുന്നു, 100 രൂപ ചേട്ടന്റെ കയ്യിൽ കൊടുത്തു ഞാൻ ബീച്ചിലേക്ക് ഇറങ്ങി, ഒത്തിരി ചിത്രങ്ങൾ എടുത്തു, ശരിക്കും മനസ് നിറഞ്ഞ പ്രതീതി.

സമയം തീരെ ഇല്ലാത്തതുകൊണ്ട് വേഗം തിരിച്ചു റോഡിലേക്ക് വന്നു, അപ്പോഴാണ് അമളി പറ്റിയത് മനസിലായത്, കപ്പല് കണ്ട തിരക്കിൽ ഓട്ടോ നമ്പർ പോലും ഞാൻ ശ്രെധിച്ചില്ല, അവിടെ അടുത്തൊന്നും ഒരു ഓട്ടോ കണ്ടും ഇല്ല, പണി പാളിയോ , അങ്ങേരു എന്റെ കാശും കൊണ്ട് മുങ്ങിയോ ? ..

ഇങ്ങനെ ഒക്കെ ആലോചിച്ചു നടക്കാൻ ഒരുങ്ങുമ്പോൾ അതാ ഒരു ഓട്ടോ വരുന്നു നമ്മുടെ നേരത്തെ ഉള്ള ചേട്ടൻ തന്നെ, ഏതോ ഫ്രണ്ട് നെ കാണാൻ പോയതാ പോലും, നമ്മൾ വീണ്ടും വിശേഷം പറഞ്ഞു എന്നെ കൊല്ലം ബീച്ചിൽ ഇറക്കി ബസ് കയറാൻ ഉള്ള വഴിയും പറഞ്ഞു തന്നു. പിന്നെ കൊല്ലത്തിന്റെ സ്വന്തം ബീച്ചിലേക്ക് ഞാൻ നടന്നിറങ്ങി, പട്ടം പരത്തുന്ന കുട്ടികൾ കടലിലേക്ക് ആഴ്ന്നിറങ്ങുന്ന സൂര്യൻ ( ഒരു 100  വട്ടം കണ്ടിട്ടും അത് എനിക്ക് ഒരു പുതുമയുള്ള കാഴ്ചയായിരുന്നു) കുറെ ഉഷമളമായ ബന്ധങ്ങൾ , ഭക്ഷണത്തിനായി അലയുന്നവർ, പുതിയ ഭക്ഷണങ്ങളുമായി ആൾക്കാരെ ആകർഷിക്കാൻ നിൽക്കുന്നവർ അങ്ങനെ ഈ ലിസ്റ്റ് നീണ്ടു നീണ്ടു പോവും. എന്നെ ഒത്തിരി ആകർഷിച്ചത് ഒരു കോഴിക്കോട്ടുകാരന്റെ സര്ബത് കടയാണ് അവിടെ നിന്നും ഒരു കുലുക്കി സര്ബത് കുടിച്ചു സൺ സെറ്റ് കണ്ടു ഒത്തിരി ഓർമകളും അനുഭവങ്ങളുമായി ആദ്യമായി കപ്പല് കണ്ട ഞാൻ തിരിച്ചു തിരുവനന്തപുരത്തേക്ക് വണ്ടി കേറി.

വിശപ്പ്‌

ഞാന്‍ മാര്തഹള്ളി വിശന്നു വലഞ്ഞു നില്കുകയായിരുന്നു ഇനി ഒരു ജ്യൂസ്‌ എങ്കിലും കുടിക്കാതെ മുന്നോട്ട് പോവാന്‍ ആവില്ല എന്ന അവസ്ഥ , ഞാന്‍ ഒരു മലയാളി ജ്യൂസ്‌ സെന്റെറില്‍ കയറി , അവിടെ കണ്ട വിലകൂടിയ ഒരു ജ്യൂസ്‌ തന്നെ ഓര്‍ഡര്‍ ചെയ്തു. അത് കഴിച്ചുകൊണ്ടിരിക്കുമ്പോഴാണ് ഒരു അമ്മയും കുഞ്ഞും വന്നു എന്റെ നേരെ കൈ നീട്ടിയത്, എനിക്ക് ശരിക്കും ദേഷ്യം ആണ് വന്നത് ഭക്ഷണം കഴിക്കാനും അനുവദിക്കില്ല നാശങ്ങള്‍ എന്ന് മനസ്സില്‍ ആലോചിച്ചു ഞാന്‍ നിഷേധ സ്വരത്തില്‍ തലയാട്ടി, ഒന്നും പറയാതെ അവര്‍ തിരിഞ്ഞു നടന്നു. ഞാന്‍ ജ്യൂസ്‌ സെന്റെറില്‍ കാശ് കൊടുക്കുമ്പോള്‍ വയറു നിറഞ്ഞെങ്കിലും മനസ് നിറയാത്ത അവസ്ഥ. ബാക്കി വന്ന കാശിനു ഒരു ബിസ്കെട്ടും വാങ്ങി ഞാന്‍ ആ അമ്മയെയും കുഞ്ഞിനേയും തേടി നടന്നു. അവര്‍ കുറച്ചകലെ വേറെ ഒരാളുടെ മുന്നില്‍ കൈ നീട്ടുകയായിരുന്നു, അയാളുടെ അവഗണനയും സഹിച്ചു നടന്ന ആ കുഞ്ഞിന്‍റെ കയ്യിലേക്ക് ഞാന്‍ ആ ബിസ്കെറ്റ് വച്ച് കൊടുത്തു , ഒരു ചിരി തിരിച്ചൊരു ചിരി.

തിരിഞ്ഞു നടക്കുമ്പോള്‍ ഞാന്‍ ഒരു മനുഷ്യന്‍ ആവുകയായിരുന്നു അഥവാ ഞാന്‍ എന്റെ തന്നെ ഹീറോ ആവുകയായിരുന്നു, വിശപ്പ്‌ സ്വയം അനുഭവിച്ചത് കൊണ്ടാണോ ആ സഹജീവിയുടെ വിശപ്പ്‌ എന്നെയും വേട്ടയാടിയത് എന്നെനിക്കറിയില്ല. ഞാന്‍ കാരണം ആ കുട്ടി ചിരിച്ചപ്പോള്‍ കിട്ടിയ സന്തോഷം അത് പറഞ്ഞറിയിക്കാന്‍ പറ്റുമെന്ന് തോനുന്നില്ല. ഇനി ഒരിക്കലും കാണാന്‍ സാധ്യത ഇല്ലാത്ത ഏതോ ഒരു കുട്ടിയുടെ (stranger ഇതിനെക്കാള്‍ നല്ല വാക്ക് മലയാളത്തില്‍ ഉണ്ടെന്നു തോനുന്നില്ല) നിറഞ്ഞ കണ്ണുകളില്‍ ഒരു പുഞ്ചിരി വിരിയിക്കാന്‍ എനിക്ക് പറ്റിയെങ്കില്‍ ഞാന്‍ കരുതുന്നു അത് തന്നെയാണ് ഏറ്റവും വല്യ പുണ്യം.

നേര്ച്ചപെട്ടിയില്‍ ഇടുന്ന പണം പുറത്തുള്ള പാവങ്ങള്‍ക്ക് കൊടുക്കാന്‍ നിങ്ങള്‍ക്ക് പറ്റിയാല്‍ നിങ്ങള്‍ തന്നെയാണ് ദൈവം ... (y).

Soulmates : Based on a True Love Story !!

It was almost 11:30 pm, I was traveling from Ernakulam to Bangalore on Saturday March 5th 2016. I noticed a guy who was sitting in-front of me was frustrated with his mobile, I was watching a movie, I observed him while watching a movie.11:50 pm: once the movie finishes I inquired about his frustration. He politely told me that he wanted to text his girlfriend and her birthday starts in few minutes. I lead my mobile, he refused and requested for hot-spot (there was only an edge connectivity that was enough for him to text over whats-app), he was looking at mobile and a smile blown on his face - it was outcome of her happiness, he thanked me and disconnected the internet.
He introduced himself as a final year engineering student - studying in a reputed college in Coimbatore and he is from Ernakulam. I introduced myself, I have seen a 3 years back myself in him, I was curious about his love story. He didn’t want to share but still he didn’t want to disappoint someone who helped him to make his girlfriend happy on her birthday :).

He started telling the story, yes his LOVE story...
"I have seen her first time in a group photo which my friend had shown me, I asked about the pretty girl who sat with a cute smile in all pics. She explained as a good girl with good sense of humor and more over her best friend too. As a girl had given a clean chit about a girl - she wouldn’t be that bad. I asked my friend to help me to connect her. She has suggested me to send a friend request and wait for 2 days. My friend was studying in Calicut Medical college for Eye technician course and she was her classmate. My friend had come for 3 days vacation and went back on Sunday, my request has been accepted on Monday evening :)".

He drank some water and continued...
"I send a 'Hi' in the night on the same day, I got reply on next day evening, I waited for her in the evenings and started the conversation. It took some time for her to trust me, she had told me that she only accepted my request because my friend had convinced her that I am good boy. I gave a word that “the day I cross the limits you can block me”.(She had told me later that this word had given the courage to text me). We started knowing each other, days passes I have become closer to her, I started loving her more than a friend slowly she has become a part of my life- an unavoidable part. Everyday I waited only to hear her stories of that day, within 5 months we have become so close and started sharing our feelings. She has shared her number and whats-app become our medium of conversation".

“When did you guys meet, you were just friends in those 5 months ?” I interrupted him since I was eagerly waiting for the twist.

He smiled and continued ..
"We were just friends, but for me she was everything(he is corrected his sentance - she is). I wanted to tell her about my feeling, I couldn’t I was afraid to loose my friend but I need her for my life, I couldn't even imagine someone else is even looking at her. When she travel from Calicut to home(Kannur) in train- in the evening when she tells about the guys who looked at her I feel like killing them. I realize that I was going mad about her. It was a Tuesday evening I have decided to express my love and called her, in a breath I had told her “I love you”, she was shocked and told that will talk later and disconnected the call. I blamed myself for the proposal, the 3 hours she had taken to call me felt like 3 years in my life. She told me that “I like you as a good friend, I don't have anything bad to tell about you, you are so caring.But, all I wanted to tell you is that I cannot hurt my parents, I never say no if my parents suggest you as my life partner, and this is the time to study and we will be good friends”
Should I be happy because she didn’t say No, should I be sad that she didn't say Yes :(. All I knew was I cannot leave her for this reason. I tried to be normal but each time I text her - those words started hunting me, its neither yes nor no. I started feeling a gap in between us. I have planned a meeting with her".
“Did you propose a girl before meeting ?” I couldn’t resist myself from asking that question.
He smiled and said “I loved her soul not her body” He wasn’t a philosopher - he was just a guy who experienced true love, those words were from experience. I smiled and requested him to continue the story.

He followed ..
"I went all the way to Calicut to meet her, when I call her she didn't pick the call, I tried calling her more than 20 times. I had realize that she didn't want to meet me, I stopped messaging her, she had text me and told sorry but I couldn’t convince myself to reply. After a week she had called me, I was in the hospital after a minor accident. She cried over phone and fought with me for informing her about my condition, she also told about the meeting that her mobile was in hostel and she was in College. That call took me back to the relation, I started loving her more than I used to, she missed me that means she loves me. I started waving wonderful stories :) .
It has been almost a year after we exchanged our first text, we had fought so many times after that proposal(that we never did before) , whenever I take love matter we end up with fighting. I left her so many times and I went back too, by realizing that I cannot live without her.
Till this moment I didn't meet her, but I know she is my everything. I am not sure does she love me or not but I love her. If she get hurt I feel the pain more than she does, if this is not LOVE I dont know what love is. I LOVE HER either she LOVES ME or NOT".

He finally completed his one year old love story by expressing his deepest love to a girl he never met. I had thousands of questions in my mind still I only asked one. You loves her alot and you know that words are thousand times times powerful than text still you didn't try to call her, even I offered my mobile ?. He smiled and replied ”You were a stranger and I don't want to take a risk of sharing her number just over a birthday wish !!”. I felt bad still I realized the depth of his care.

It was 1:30 am, I told good night along with best wishes for his love story. While falling asleep, I was thinking about the Trust and love he has for her. I said myself True Love still Exists :)

Life Partner : A Best friend can be Your Best Life Partner

Dedicating this story to all my friends who hide their feelings to keep a relation alive :)

It was 11:30 pm of a Thursday night, I was sleeping in my room.suddenly I started hearing a familiar tune, my unconscious mind tried it best to recognize it - yes my mobile was ringing.I lead my hand towards the phone and picked the call (on that very moment I hated touch screen- so much struggle I put to attend the call :() my dozy eyes were still closed and gave most laziest hello I could ever give, but in return was vibrant HELLO !! with a female Voice. The energy went through my vein - all of sudden I woke up and sat on my bed and started the conversation.

“Hallo, Who is this” Still I was lazy to look at my mobile screen to identify the person.
“Heyy this is ammuzz yaar, what are you doing”
“I was playing cricket, What the hell, why did you call this time? ” The tune in her voice gave a positive vibe (it means she is not in trouble) so I had enough right scold her for breaking my sleep.
“Why are you so angry my dear friend?, cool down I wanted to tel you something” She was cool in her words.
“I did text you an hour back, what the hell had happened in last 1 hour, that cannot wait even 8 hours.” My words were still carrying the anger.
“Heyy Mr Cool,this anger never suites for you, wanted to tel you something” she console me with pet names that has been given by her.
“Okay my dear, now tell me the good news, did you find a fool to fall in Love with you ? :P ” I was slowly coming to her mood, that is the best quality she has, I always end up with smiling if I start fight with her.
“I have been thinking about you last few hours, and I wanted to meet you on Saturday” She murmured the words already kept in her mouth for few minutes.
“Why ??, that is not going to work, you know I am in Bangalore, how are you expecting me to be there on Saturday ?”
“You know I wanted to meet you tomorrow, but I postponed it because I knew that you cannot catch a bus now and come to Kannur”

I was not sure what was going in her mind but I was sure that it is something important and I woke and open my laptop and started searching for ticket for Friday night. Over phone I was fighting with her and convincing her that I cannot come, but when she told me that I wanted to meet you, I was sure I will be there at home on Saturday. Within an half an hour I made my self ready to travel on very next day, I know you might be thinking about the girl who has power in my life to change my entire plan of weekend over a phone call? The answer is very simple she is my best friend - someone in my life who knows about all the girls I proposed, the only one person in my life whom I can share everything with.
It has been five years she is with me, the day I met her in the train journey from Thalassery to Calicut - she was just like everyone whom I used to meet in the train. She was a vibrant girl - a person who carries lots of energy. I haven’s seen her sad, when I told her that I am relocating to Bangalore very first time we felt a pin drop silence in between us, before I recovering from it, she pat on my shoulder and said I will also be there soon. Once I reach Bangalore I started missing her-even she shared the same with (values of people will be realized in their absence only- sensible quote). To overcome that situation we started messaging whenever she is in train. But we didn’t have anything to talk - then we started explaining what had happened in the whole day.One day while messaging habit she had complained me that she couldn’t make new friends and she is so happy to be with this good friend. Then I started realizing a bond between us - she has become a reaching point for all my problems she does the same. A relation for life time, and she is the best adviser for all my love stories ( unsuccessful :( - I don’t have a successful story either).
Friday the entire day I didn't do any work at office, I was thinking what does she need by meeting, she give surprises, but she always make sure that I am comfortable with it. In this case she didn’t even care about my situation- yes this gonna be something really important. After so much fight she revealed that this day will decide her future - this is definitely related to her marriage - she is going to introduce a guy - as per our contract we have decided to introduce our life partners to each other so that our marriage will not be a barrier for our friendship. But she didn’t tell about any serious marriage proposal was going on these days.May be she wanted to give surprise !!!.
I reached home by 6:30 am. Mom forced me to sleep but I didn’t, if your mind filled with something excited sleep run away. I took bath and all set to meet her- we had planned our meeting by 10:00 AM, 2 more hours to go. I text her she is getting ready. I started by 9:00 reached there by 9:35 AM. We are meeting at thalassery Park - The park was almost empty. I called her she told me to come inside. I saw a girl sitting alone on a seat by looking at the sea. I though she might be counting the waves - I tapped on her shoulder and sat next to her.

“Are you counting the waves by calling me all the way from Bangalore ?” I threw a question towards her.
“I didn’t let you wait, the way all your girl friends had done before” That frown spoke rest of the words.
“Okay my dear, now tell why are you here by 9:30 for a 10:00 o clock meeting, I haven’t seen a girl coming in time for a meeting” I was more interest to know why she is early than the real matter.
“You haven’t met a real girl before” it came as a boomerang.
“ Now I m with a real girl I guess :). Heyy fool I didn’t come to fight with you that we could have done over call, now you tel me why are we here. The so called life changing incident ?”
“Are you busy ? , If you are you can carry on .. If you feel that you have some time to spend with me, I wanted to tel you something” I realized that she need some more time.

I lead a diary-milk (silk - she likes that flavor) which I brought for her, her angry reddish face become cute and she has become a kid in few seconds. While eating the chocolate she murmured ‘I wish to get it daily ‘ I heard those words still I asked her what did she say, she scolded me for interrupting her from eating chocolate. I was enjoying the moment by seeing how cute when she is eating chocolate.
We didn’t speak for few minutes, I looked at the sea and started imagining some crazy things like, jumping into it. She was eating her chocolate, after few minutes later she came close to me and hold my hand, I didn’t feel anything bad. Whenever we are in trouble and wanted to share something emotional we used do this, we believe - holding hands passes the care and love from one to other. I looked at her eyes, this wasn’t the same girl who ate chocolates 2 minutes back, that smile was not there. I have realized that she wanted to tell me something important - I gave my full attention and looked at her eyes.

“Sam, I wanted to tell you something” I smiled back she continued
“I feel, I cannot live without you, I need you in my life as my better half I cannot even imagine spending a second without You” She leaned on my shoulder and started crying.
I was not sure what do I tell her, few drops of tears rolled out from my eyes and rest on my hand. I hold her hand little tighter I know she wanted to tell me so much but she couldn’t. There is not even single reason for me to tel no, but I didn't think of it before.
“Heyy fool, for this silly matter why did you call me all the way from Bangalore” I was trying to make this situation cool, she broke my words and continued ...
“I know, I dont have even a single quality of a girl you have dated before, and you know me better than anyone. I don't have any quality you wish your partner should have. Please don't hate me for this, be with me as good friend if you cannot see me as lover. But my heart always sinks when you talk about another girl...“ She was still looking at sea, her eyes were wet.

I wasn’t prepared for a romantic dialogue, was expecting her partner and she was saying she want me to be her partner.

“I am not sure what should I tell you. I don’t know what feeling I kept for you. Whenever I need you, you were there for me. I never thought of taking our relation to that level, may be all experiences I have with love stories aren’t good. If I think of you I know someone in my life who always care for me. I was afraid to take our relation to any other levels.” I took a long pause.... She was keeping looking at me and I continued ..

“But for this very moment all I want is your happiness” I wiped her tears and kissed her forehead and said “I LOVE YOU” and she murmured to my heart “I LOVE YOU TOOO...”

Love is the Best Medicine: Story of My hospitalization

Have you even been hospitalized? No? Then you haven’t experienced the most wonderful part of your life. Yes you yet to be feel the deepest care and love from your loved ones.

It was a Friday mid night I had felt the symptoms of fever a heavy fever, I know there was nothing to do from Bangalore and I off to native on very next day. The journey which I went through would be the toughest journey I ever had. Traveling the night with a heavy fever is such a difficult task, but I was much more comfortable as I was traveling to home (the safest place in the world) – I know there I would get remedy for all the deceases. As soon as I reach home I had been taken to a nearby doctor – his initial treatment can be described as a hide and seek play with fever. It went away whenever I had medicine and it came back after some times.

It took 3days for my doctor suggest a hospitalization in my case, that news SHOCKED me, but when time passes I have realized the reality and prepared myself to be in hospital. I and my father went to the nearby hospital with the prescription provided by the doctor and we met another Doctor over there and he also agreed with my doctor’s decision- yes I should be hospitalized :(. Here my first hospitalization story begins.

Now I and father are in hospital my father standing in a queue to get the medicines prescribe by the doctor, since it was a first day the main medicines were bunch of glucose bottles. I didn’t get the special room so I had admitted in the General ward on that day and made myself comfortable by counting the drips from glucose bottle. By the time almost all my close relatives were reached in the hospital, they had bought a different types of fruits and I tried to eat an orange, on the very moment I realized that how danger my fever was – I vomited whatever I ate for the day and fainted in the washroom.   

That was first time I met her – she had come to change my glucose bottle. A girl with an average looking with an awesome caring smile - She was a typical Kerala girl. Yes I had found a reason to be here – sounds funny but interesting. But it didn’t last long, my parents were trying to get a separate room and it got sanctioned in the evening and I had moved to an entirely different block of the hospital. Somehow I spend that night – it was difficult to sleep when the syringe on the hand and realizing and something going inside your blood, I waited till glucose got over and drifted to most uncomfortable sleep of my life.

The light touched on my face with a sign of new morning. It was almost 8 am and wake up from the bed and went near to the window. I was surprised by seeing the world in front of - a river which is flowing towards sea and it is piecing together with sea and in between I could see an old bridge that had broken down at one side and fishermen are sailing their boat beneath the bridge and rest of the scene filled with coconut tree. I am not good in visualization but the view was thousand times better than I described. I felt sorry for not have a good camera to capture such a wonderful scene.

The visual I had seen gave me good energy but still I was uncomfortable with the things happening to me. A complete day I didn’t go anywhere beyond the hospital premises and I have had food restriction (I might survive if I could have had anything). It would take almost a week to leave the hospital, I was shocked by hearing the words from doctor and the very moment I have decided to plan something to make my week fruitful.

It was early morning of my second of hospitalization day - I woke up by seeing a nurse by keeping herself ready to take an injection, soon after the injection she didn’t forget to take my blood for testing. Since it was my first experience I was quite worried, then it became a usual routine.

Yes I suffered a little now let me tell you the most wonderful part of my hospitalization or why I really loved those days more than anything. My father did feed me <3, yes may be after 20 years he did feed me with the same care and love he had when I was 3 or less than that. I just started feeling new breeze in the premises where I didn’t like to stay. In the afternoon it was mom’s turn to do the same :). The day I have realized that most amazing moment in our life is to be loved that was best moment I ever had in my life [kudos to fever].

Day’s passes I was getting more and more reason to stay back in the hospital. It was my 5^th day, doctor gave green signal to eat fish, but still restriction for rest of the non Veg. It is better to have something than nothing. Here it comes the love which I never experienced- let me introduce the person first. He is my youngest uncle and he is the only one who beaten me in the childhood. I was really eager to have fish, all I did soon after I get the green signal was waiting for afternoon. I walked through the verandah, my mom had noted my restlessness and I revealed my situation. At last my uncle had come with my favorite fish curry. That evening my aunt had told my mom that uncle had traveled till town to get my favorite fish, on that moment I had realized that he has taken that opportunity to show the love he had kept inside the heart.

The day had come up, my doctor checked my sixth blood result and he gave a clean sheet. I was happy, no I was sad – I was afraid to lose the care and fun I had at the hospital beyond all these I started missing someone who wasn’t part of my story at all – the nurse whom I described in the beginning. But by the time I was matured enough to realize that I couldn’t see a nurse care as Love and it is her. But I really don’t want to give up so I have decided to come back and propose her – not now definitely later.

I left the hospital premises – my mind was filled with the awesome memories I had. When the car started moving forward I have realized that I started pushing the wonderful part of my life to memories.

The day I started viewing the life in a positive angle I just started loving the hospitalization. I started experiencing a new phase of my life. The fever had taught a new lesson. Whenever I feel I lost everything I do start thinking the good things around me.

If you really troubled , change the way you approaching the problem, wishing you a happiest life ahead :)

Name : Distance from You to Me

            2 Years back, I had been working with Happiest Minds. It was a Wednesday evening, I was leaving to native for four days vocation. My office was located near Electronics City, it would take almost an hour to reach Satellite bus station (the place where should I board bus to native). I was aware about the traffic in long weekends and planned an hour buffer for my journey, my bus would leave by 8.15 and I left my office by 6.00 pm.

  

              356 C – bus which take you to Majestic from Electronics city. I boarded the bus by 6.15 pm, bus was empty as it was started from Electronics city. Electronics city is located south end of Bangalore some of the companies like Infosys, Wipro, HP and even my company also located here. Since the bus was empty, I occupied a windows seat – the seat was in front and it would face the opposite  seat – I have seen these type of seating system only in Volvo buses (obviously in trains too, I mean bus category). Don’t ask me “why did I select the seat” - I like it that’s all.

  

              Bus was moving slowly and started filling its stomach with techies, seat in front of me filled with two girls and nearby filled by an old man. I was gluing into my mobile, it was Facebook where I was doing scrolling process and even I was updating my status time to time. Time went off my bus was moving in such a way a bicycle riders could overtake it. I don’t want to blame the driver because the road was fully packed – Bangalore is always like this in weekends, if that is long weekend then?? you would feel to walk rather than sitting in bus. I was checking my watch and reached location and keep estimating my arrival time at Bus stand. I had enough buffer time so I didn’t bother about the traffic of Bangalore at all.

              After sometimes I lost momentum of moving, I looked out of the bus, it was stopped – may be in a signal or at bus stop, I had waited few more minutes. After 15 minutes I felt the same and looked out - same place, same advertisement, I felt something wrong. I checked for a person to ask about it, the only person present near to me was the girl who boarded from Electronics city. I enquired about the situation and realize that bus was not stopped it was struck in traffic.

                It was 7.15 pm: I have exactly an hour to catch my bus, but there was no guarantee that the bus would reach at Majestic on expected time. At last I had decided to get down from the bus and catch an auto to Majestic. I didn’t have any idea where Majestic would be, I asked a lady she was also searching for an auto. I don’t know from where the girl came into our Group, now me that Lady and the girl - who was sitting in front of me in bus were together to get an auto. The lady was basically from Karnataka that help us to bargain with Auto driver and zeroed to 100 rupees to Majestic.

                The lady had to reach Kalasi Palayam so we took a route via Kalasi palayam to Majestic. We three started journey from Shanthi Nagar, I had a chat with the lady she was working as HR and she advise me to take care of the girl. The lady had collected her number and told her call if she needs any help, by the time we reached Kalasi palayam and the lady left by paying the auto fare.

                The auto started from Kalasi palayam to Majestic we both were in the auto in the two corners of the seat. The auto driver can simply put two more people in the gap. She was afraid and I was shy to begin a talk. In the conversation between the Lady and this girl I had understand that she was basically from Punjab and had been working for Infosys and she was coming to Majestic to pick her Friend - She was thin fair and short too. is wheat of Punjab the reason of the beauty? all Punjabi girls are like this ? like that so many questions went through my mind.

                I wish to start but I couldn’t (I don’t want to bore you by saying the first “hi” and last “bye” dialog again, but it is true - I have experienced so many times ;)). It was almost 8.00 I had only 15 minutes to catch my bus Still I wish not to reach Majestic - I didn’t want to end this journey at all because a girl in my concept near at hand. I didn’t talk, I didn’t looked at her still I could feel that presence. I know I would regret if I didn’t speak.

                Happiness never last long – we reached Majestic within few minutes. We paid the auto fair and get down from the auto. Before moving to catch my next bus I lead my hands towards her and said my name. She smiled at me [an ever beautiful smile I have seen? - still I don't know may be "Yes"] and she lead her hand towards me. We shake our hand she was supposed to say her name suddenly a girl came and hug her from back and pull her towards bus. She couldn’t speak anything, all of  sudden they enter into a bus and doors closed automatically.While dragging towards the bus her eyes were stuck at me. Bus started from Majestic to Electronics city (same 356-C) I waved my hands by saying bye and she waved back too. I didn’t understand the reality till she disappeared from my eyes - I couldn't meet her, I couldn't call her and most painful thing was I didn't know her name yes if I try then also I couldn't find her. That day I missed my bus to native but I missed her much more than anything in the world, I regretted for the time I wasted with silence. 

We know that we couldn’t find a person by knowing her home town and Company name but still I am searching for her.